Published by mrbeasty on Sunday, November 13, 2016
From time to time, I have to rework my ideas. This IS that time. Standby.
My recent reinvolvement with the Cult of Cthulhu has spurred an assessment of my theology. The desire to once again incorporate the mythology of Lovecraft and finally put forth The Insidious Way, as I meant it to be in the beginning; has inspired a reworking of concepts and imagery. Therefore it is fitting that these pages are once again empty except for these markers (top page and about).
When I first began codifying ISW in 2009, it was with the intention of it solidifying the “hodge-podge” of occult, esoteric, and philosophical practices offered by the Cult of Cthulhu which had been organically assimilating since it was first envisioned by Darrick Dishaw (aka Venger As’Nas Satanis). It would of course include my interpretations and contributions to the newborn faith. No longer would the criticism be valid that it was a merely “synthesis” of this plus that and so forth. Instead it would be found as it was always meant to be… A living, breathing faith for the faithless; an Awakening to the Terror of our situation and the tools to liberation.
For a time, I labored to extract its essence so that it could stand-alone without the Cult. That spurred many reworkings, but it was always meant to be returned to R’lyeh. Now I find myself in the position, to finish what I set out so long ago to do. The A:O has called from the Deep, and the stars are almost right. I have learned so much on my path, yet sometimes still know nothing. In those moments when I find truth, in those fleeting waking moments; I’ve struggle to keep it in mind, until I found the words to transmit it.
I knew not which to believe, yet longed more and more to cross forever into the unknown land; for doubt and secrecy are the lure of lures, and no new horror can be more terrible than the daily torture of the commonplace. So when I learned of the drug which would unlock the gate and drive me through, I resolved to take it when next I awaked.
If there is a way out of this prison of cosmic suffering, it can only be an Insidious Way.