Published by mrbeasty on Sunday, November 13, 2016
If there is a way out of this prison of cosmic suffering, it can only be an Insidious Way.
My recent re-involvement with the Cult of Cthulhu has spurred an assessment of my ideology. The desire to once again incorporate the mythology of Lovecraft and finally put forth The Insidious Way, as I meant it to be in the beginning; has inspired a reworking of concepts and imagery. Therefore it is fitting that these pages are once again empty except for these markers (top page and about).
When I first began codifying ISW in 2009, it was with the intention of it solidifying the “hodge-podge” of occult, esoteric, and philosophical practices offered by the Cult of Cthulhu which had been organically assimilating since it was first envisioned by Darrick Dishaw (aka Venger As’Nas Satanis). It would of course include my interpretations and contributions to the newborn faith. No longer would the criticism be valid that it was a merely “synthesis” of this plus that and so forth. Instead it would be found as it was always meant to be… A living, breathing faith for the faithless; an Awakening to the Terror of our situation and the tools toward liberation.
For a time, I labored to extract its essence so that it could stand-alone without the Cult. That spurred many reworkings, but it was always meant to be returned to R’lyeh. Now I find myself in the position, to finish what I set out so long ago to do. The A:O has called from the Deep, and the stars are almost right. I have learned so much on my path, yet sometimes still know nothing. In those moments when I find truth, in those fleeting waking moments; I have struggle to keep it in mind, until I found the words to transmit it.
I knew not which to believe, yet longed more and more to cross forever into the unknown land; for doubt and secrecy are the lure of lures, and no new horror can be more terrible than the daily torture of the commonplace. So when I learned of the drug which would unlock the gate and drive me through, I resolved to take it when next I awaked.
I have come to the idea that man struggles falsely for the attainment of enlightenment and godhood. That instead of embracing his twofold nature as flesh and spirit, he is distracted and wishes to be something other than what he is (or is capable of becoming). I think man should focus on becoming man and understand that not only is he mortal but he misunderstands all things of a spiritual level.
I perceive a “spirit” to be closer to a “memeplex” (def: a complex of memes) than how it is commonly perceived. Man is not born with a spirit, but if he works in the right way, he may develop one. When a man’s essence, ideas, and methods are developed cohesively; he emits a resonance which draws others which are tuned to his frequency. In this, we can now understand the term “possession” with more clarity; as the type of spirit I am talking about can be found taking possession. Some men develop the ability to presence themselves and their ideas both separately and synonymously to the level that they infect us all. This is their “spirit” and when it truly takes “possession” it echos throughout the ages.